Cross of Calvary?Indeed...

Moving on...

2010-06-23T08:30:00.004+08:00

Wow, its been such a long time since I drop by here, but then, its a season to move on from where I am right now.

Putting up with someone you don't like in the office could be hell, but nevertheless, 3 years of working in this company, I have given my all, trying very hard to please everyone else.

We are not here to make anyone happy, but ourselves. You could make a million people happy but there are still 7 billion people out there unsatisfied with your contribution to this shallow world.

We are often judged according to the money we earn, if we drive a luxurious car, its ok if we are rude on the road because we pay more road tax!As simple as that. An of course there is no way to escape your relatives asking you, "So now Manager arh?"

This is the kind of pressure life puts on you, a minute of slacking and people come calling you a bum, but I am experienced enough to handle this emotions turmoil. Apparently, when we are needed, we are always being treated nice, but once you are not, OFF you go!

I am fully aware that moving on, I will still face with the problem of menacing managers, but if I don't I will never know, and I will not be able to tell my grandchildren that the the grass is INDEED greener on the other side, or maybe there is really a pot of gold at the end of every rainbow.

The sky is dark and gloomy, but fear not, I have connnections "HIGH UP" whom does not despise me of my lackings! WE are all human, and we can only work towards perfection and well nobodys' perfect!

There is always light at the end of tunnel of darkness, a light that brings relief to my heart, knowing that the pain and suffering will end real soon.

May God revenge and do unthinkable things to the people who has maligned and persecuted me, and to shower LOVE and BLESSINGS to those whom I am grateful to. I am not a vengeful soul, but I guess I won't be doing anything myself because I won't and refuse to stoop as low as some beings in bringing down other so that they could achieve what they want to achive!

May God, return 3 folds or even 10 folds of pain and agony!

Amen

Prayer of distress
Teng

It a tough tough world

2009-08-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

My TV broke down and so did my car...

A total of RM1850 damage done...

Don't ask, don't even say anything...

Gonna take some time to recover...

Damn...

Signing off
Teng

I wonder...

2009-08-07T23:12:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i think that we are never satisfied with things that we have.

Why do I say that? How many times have we thought to ourselves, "If only..."

Just try to be happy and things might turn out better than you wish it would be.

Be glad, praise God, Thank Him!

Signing off'
Teng

Its a small small world

2009-07-20T21:26:00.002+08:00

What comes around goes around...

Round and round it goes...

Wait b*tch, wait...

God will get you...

Arghhh... I need a new lease of life...

Routine routine routine...

Signing off;
Teng

Its a forgetful bunch

2009-07-18T21:57:00.002+08:00

The Malaysian politicians or law makers are really lucky bunch of people because the older generations of Malaysians are forgetful.

How many times the government has failed us in 50 years we let live and forget, now now, kudos to MACC for being very proactive in their investigation on errant law makers who misuses public funds, regardless of party or race!

Just one small question, dear MACC, what happened to the culprits in MRR2 cracks? After spending 40 million on the repairs, will it be too much to ask to at least update us on any wrong doing or foul play in the initial contract?

What happened to the APs which were given out to relatives and friends which the government claims that they will bring those involved to court?

What happened to the lawatan sambil belajar to Disney Land? Millions of ringgit has gone down the drain and still no arrest?

What about the Istana in Klang? Of course with my most emphatic and sympathy effort, although the 'MAN' is gone, what about his family members? Are they checked by MACC as well to ensure that they were not benefiting from him?

Please do not give reasons such as "Oh, we were not even there when it happens!" or "The file was handled by another department"

Please, please do not waste any more of our time and money. The taxpayers are watching...irregardless of your party, your ministry, your race or whatever that separates you from the rakyat,

Please do remember who put you there first, no, not because you are capable, but because we trust that you are capable enough to lead us, but please do not try us,
we are not like our parents, we are not forgetful, and no we are not staying silent because we are indifferent.

It is because we are waiting for the right time to voice our opinions! We will do it legally, we will change the way Malaysia works, from now on, its the People Power...not BN, Not PR, not Umno, not PAS and not DAP.

Our parents are forgetful, we are less forgiving and forgetful bunch of spoiled brats!!!

Beware!God's watching eh??

Signing off'
Teng

2009-01-03T00:59:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!!!!

To all whom have loved me, who have helped me, whom have ditch me, to whom may feel isolated by me, for those who feel angry, to those who feel disappointed and to those who don't give a f*** about anything else other than yourself:

Give yourself a pat on the shoulder, you deserve it!!

:)

Good bye 2008 and Hello 2009!
Signing off'
Teng

0-100

2008-12-30T11:03:00.002+08:00

Tested my Wira 1.5 Auto couple of years back and it clocked at a very slow time of 16.3 seconds(1 person in the car with no sound system acc.)

I recently did a test with Lyn in the car, I clocked a pretty good figure of 13.71seconds on the first run and 12.81 on the second run.

Done many modifications throughout these two years:

I will try to list them down and the price I paid for them :(

1. Grounding cables RM90

2. Voltage stabiliser(DIY) RM90

3. Mid Box(Cat Con) RM 220

4. Twin Tip exhaust RM 280

5. K&N Filter with ram pipe Rm 300

6. Ultra Racing 4-point stabiliser bar(Front) RM 220

7. Redline Lightened Crank Pulley RM 340

8. DIY Cold Air Intake RM 40

9. DIY Heat Shield RM 10

10. Bosch Sports Plug Cables Rm 80

11. Sound System Rm 1000

12. Tinting RM 450

13. Sound/Heat Proofing Rm 100

Total = A flipping RM 3220

Hmm...to think of it, all these are practically useless to me, but then it is more of an interest for car modding.

Thanks to my dear(Lyn) for the support she showed to me and my wasteful spendings(sad and guilty now!)

Signing off'
Teng

New Layout

2008-12-11T20:35:00.001+08:00

Jeng Jeng Jeng!!!!

My blog has a new layout and all thanks to Lyn my dear for her effort. Now I can customize it to my liking.

Hope you guys like the new color of the background. People has been complaining that my layout is very dull and boring.

Well enjoy!

Signing off'
Teng

External HDD

2008-12-11T20:20:00.005+08:00

After Lyn complained about her previous external HDD(3.5" Western Digital 80gb), we decided to get a brand new spanking external HDD. Not that she complains about the size, but well, the old HDD just went "kaput".

Therefore we sent in to our IT experts to retrieve whatever files that could be savaged from that old rotten HDD(This has cost us RM50.00 and on top of that, RM200 for a Hitachi 2.5" external HDD 250gb)

There is a vast difference in the width and length, decided to post it up for the fun of it.

Signing off'
Teng

Workload!!!

2008-12-07T08:55:00.003+08:00

Ever felt that you have been used so much that you don't know whether to or not to fight back?

Well I am currently doing a job for four person. I cover the whole of KL,Seremban and Kota Bahru in my sales route, whole as in Kepong, Ampang, Cheras, Kajang, Putrajaya, Rawang, Bukit Beruntung, Serendah, Batu Caves, KL City, Sungai Buloh, Setapak, Shah Alam, Puchong, OUG, PJaya, Seremban, Banting, Bahau, Kuala Pilah, Tg. Sepat, Kota Bahru(Kelantan)

And damn, I never knew I covered such a huge area and my company seems not interested in employing a new guy for all these. Well all these for a meagre salary, but times are bad eh? No way to go, can only pray to God and work one thing at a time.

Sometimes I feel like s*it but sometimes if felt good because I self motivate by telling myself it is okay and it is a one in a life time chance to travel around Malaysia while being paid for petrol and car maintenance!

Well, apart from this my boss, COO(Chief Operating Officer) is nice. Just hope that he shows a little bit more concern on our branch's workload. Maybe, and maybe a little appreciaion. He doesn't know how important is his recognition to me. A small pat on my back gets me all geared up for more work. Why? Because I wanna repay and impress him, because he is the one, by God's grace brought me into the company!

Thanks to Lyn for constant support and patience to hear me rant!

Signing off'
Teng

Arguments!

2008-11-30T10:03:00.002+08:00

I somehow consider myself as competitive arguer(if there is such word!haha). I jump at the slightest chance to argue and it has somehow caused strains(from time to time) between Lyn and myself.

Not to say that she will keep quiet while I "Hantam" her, the problem is that we both are argumentative! She is very capable of holding her ground and well, argue! We are both good at it. So there is no winning or losing, nope! and we are not going to stop there, It is all about battering the opposite party till he or she is speechless!

I know it is going to sound weird, but somehow I enjoyed the constant argue! I mean we both know when to say sorry(or do we?)

Well I am going to take the opportunity to say sorry for those time I stood my grounds and refused apologize! Thanks dear, you are the best!

Signing Off'
Teng

Lightened Crank Pulley

2008-11-30T09:59:00.002+08:00

This is what I am getting for myself for Christmas!!!

Christmas...

2008-11-30T09:48:00.002+08:00

This is the day celebrated with much excitement and happiness. What was behind all these celebrations? What is the main purpose of celebrating Christmas?

It is hard to answer now..maybe it is about the sumptuous meal?or even the big gifts we are hoping for? Or maybe....

It is about the joy of giving, just like Jesus, giving his life up for us...

This is all about Jesus and the joy of giving, not some fat guy with a red costume.

What happened? Why are we so easily strayed away from the real reason of this day?

Brainwashed every single day by commercials after commercials. What does this Christmas mean to you?

Only you can answer...

Merry Christmas!!!

Signing off'
Teng

Tidak Apa!

2008-09-22T08:17:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since I blogged, well maybe it was due to the fact that we are all busy fighting for our own survival.

What has become of Malaysia? Politically unstable and only the "Rakyat" is suffering from this. To even begin this, we the "Rakyat" are actually the bosses while the ministers are our representatives(in a nice manner!!)

But can somebody tell me why I am ALWAYS pushed to the side of the road when "somebody" whom I have elected, paid and employed is coming through? This is not even considering the street was in an almost impossible to move situation. Instead of being treated how a worker will treat their bosses, I was treated like I was a "kuli" despite I was paying taxes to pay their petrol, toll, food, entertainment, lawatan sambil belajar and their kid's educations' claims!!

Atrocious manner!! Imagine if I have treat my bosses this way, the next moment I will be already on my way out of the company. But we, have to wait for the next 5 years to kick them out!!!

Despite being called an immigrant(which I am fine with it), I love Malaysia. But what I am hearing from youngsters nowadays is:

"If there is any opportunity, it is better for us to migrate to another country"

Even countries like Thailand, Indonesia and Philipines are brought up in their conversation. I mean, this countries listed here are going through turmoils like ours, but why are they in one of the chosen destination for migration? I do not know, you tell me!!

Tell me, how are we going to progress further? Maybe we will end up like Japan whereby the number of old surpasses the young. But it will not be the same reason! We will lose our youngsters to the other countries like Singapore!

Well, it is matter of time where Malaysia will fall into a chaotic situation, economically and politically.

To the government, we the youngsters are no longer interested to know about our country or politics. We have lost our interest. We have nothing to be proud of and this is not the way we want it to be! You pushed us to the edge,we will stay at the edge!

"Tidak Apa Attitude" is our life motto. What ever happens, "Tak apalah, biasa je tu"

Signing off'
Teng

Mobil Fully Synthetic Engine Oil 5w-50 4L RM168.00

2008-05-28T16:34:00.005+08:00

Hi All,

For all of you motor enthusiast, you should have heard of Mobil Fully Synthetic Engine Oil. It is one of the best oil to protect your engine and to provide you with the best overall performance.

Normal retail price : RM198.00-RM210.00

Offer price NOW!! : RM165.00

Order now by dropping in the comment or chatter box or call me at 012-4016882.

First come first serve!!!

Regards'
Teng 0124016882

Survey!!!

2008-05-26T17:02:00.005+08:00

Guys Guys,

You people can earn money by completing surveys online. I am not sure if this is real, but according to my friend it is!!!

The minimum payout would be USD 78.00 through Paypal,

No harm giving a try, you will just need to evaluate certain website-give 3 simple lines of evaluation and thats all!You get USD 4.00 for one survey done.

Please click on this link below:

AW Surveys<----Click Here

or just click on the banner(right hand upper conner of my blog!)

Signing off'
Teng

HID!!!!Let there be WHITE Lights!!!

2008-05-18T02:12:00.002+08:00

Hi guys,

I hv 20 sets of eagleye HID from 6k-8k for sale

Hi/Lo

Hi=Yellow light

Low= White HID

this is to escaped from authorities lar...

H4/H7/H3 (any req can pm)

Price is Rm280(new update!!!!!)

Warranty Bulb+Ballast 1 year(one to one exchange)

COD(location puchong/subang/sunway)/Postage(RM25)

Drop me a message or comment and I will get back to you!!!

Eric 0124016882

Wishlist

2008-05-18T01:40:00.002+08:00

Everybody has a wish list. I have mine as well. Simple but realistic:

1. Hope that everything goes well between Lyn and myself. Able to give and take and tolerate each other's kerenah(which I have more I guess)

2. A new horn for my little Wira

3. A new Viper alarm system for my Wira(the old alarm not working as well as it should be)

4. A 15" inch new rims with tyre

5. A pay hike at the end of the year(enough to cover my expenses)

6. 2 bijik air con for my house(lyn's room and one more for the dining area

7. A brand new car(hopefully at least a Gen 2 CPS or maybe a second hand Vios)

Thats all for this year. I know only left 6 more months. I guess some of those I need to wait in order for me to get them. I will work hard especially the first one as that is the most important wish!

Signing off'
Teng

Happy 21st Birthday!!

2008-05-13T08:10:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you~~~
Happy Birthday to Ah Dear(Shirlyn)!!~~~~~~
Happy Birthday to you!!!!!
Happy 21st Birthday!!!
Big girl already, must study harder ok?Must "teng hua" ok??

Hugs Hugs

Hope you like the flowers, might not be the biggest, but you have not seen the last of me, I promised...hehe

Love you always'
Ah Dear

Signing Off'
Teng

Late Late Late

2008-05-12T08:26:00.003+08:00

Glad to be back on blogging after a layoff of such a long time. Beginning to accustomed myself with my sales job. Apart from travelling in my car everyday, I will need to report myself to office by 8.30 am in the morning. Well by the way, no one in my office adheres to it except ocassionally my manager will show up-maybe let us say 845am??

I have been adhering to it for the past 1 year(this is how long I have been working with my current company) and no, no one notices I am early everyday. Nobody says "thank you" or whatsoever encouraging words to spur me on. So why do I continue everyday being early despite them being late??

What I want to instil in myself is timeliness in my life. Failing to be punctual at all times marks the fall of that person. The first impression is always important and if you can't even adhere to the appointed time, I will be left wondering what the other person thinks of you.

Thus, self-discipline is a very strong and important word. Apart from the fact that we are living in Malaysia, constant road congestion is one of the main reason why we, Malaysians are unable to keep our promises. Excuses after excuses such as :

1. Sorry lah, very jam lah just now.

2. Just now got massive accident la of Fed Highway, thats why jam.(oh by the way the jam is caused by curious onlookers-(kaypoh people)

3. My friend/mum/dad/sister/brother/grandmother/grandfather asked me to help them with some chores lah. That is why I am late.

4. My car no petrol. Went and pump mah. That is why I am late.

5. Sorry ah, no car park. So I late lor.

Don't you all realise that because you are late you caused another person to waste his time waiting for you to come? This the main problem we the youngsters, face nowadays. Older generation always says "Nowadays ah, youngsters(refering to you and I) always late, cannot be relied on, no discipline, no iniative, no creativity and no-the list will go on."

Actually where did we learn to be late? From our PARENTS what!!

I remember myself telling my dad, "DAD I am late for school already"
He just answered nonchantly, "Late abit won't die wan lar!!"

So, what is the verdict? You decide!

Signing off'
Teng

TAGGED!!

2008-03-03T00:01:00.002+08:00

Love Quiz
Game rules:

A． People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B． These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people. People who are tagged will be blessed and their wishes will come true in the future.

1.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Devastated.

2.What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?
Tell her and hope that she don't kill me!

3.What will your dream wedding be like?
Maybe, a wedding on a cruise. Preferably only myself and my bride on the whole ship

4.Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Most of the time.

5.What's your ideal lover like?
My dear Shirlyn

6.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
Being loved.

7.If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
No, but i waited a few times though

8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Forget about it, I guess. What else can i do?

9.Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
I am fat!

10.What do you want most in life?
Health and love!

11.Is being tagged fun?
NO...John...No!

12.If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
Tie him up, chop of his C*** and make him watch porn and let him bled to death!!!wahhahahaha(Lyn's style)

13.Who is currently the most important person to you?
My baby

14.What kind of person do you think I am?
John: A very good friend of mine. But lack of self confidence in his life. Needs to motivate himself more and he should know that he can do better in many things.

15.What is the most unforgettable thing/event in your life?
I have STM. Where were we?Uh oh ya...unforg?...Nevermind!

16.If the person you secretly like cannot recognise you, what would you do/how would you react?
Nothing. What else can I do?

17.Would you give your all in a relationship?
Yes.

18.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
The person who loves me more.

19.What type of friends do you like?
Friends who are zany, lame, kind, patience, lots of moolah to spent on me and my gf(hint hint hint John!!!)

20.If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
Try to contain my laughter. Walks seriously into a confined room and burst out laughing till the sun don't shine!!

DONE JOHN>>>DONE!!!!!!!

Flying

2007-06-23T14:38:00.000+08:00

It seems so easy
To run and take off where I am standing
Instead I felt that my wings are clipped!
Though I struggle, though I fight with all my heart
my strength and my body
I could not take off, I could not fly...anymore

People say "Look in front and spread your wings!"
You have got to push yourself to your limit
Till you fall right on your face
That is when you know the pain that sets in right after it
It is a never ending problem

First you wanna spread your wings and fly,
Then you need to think of ways to land safely
I am tired of trying
People telling me what to do
People directing me in my OWN life

Not yours, its mine...

"Stop being who you are"
"You have to change"
I rather not because...

THIS IS ME!!!TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT...

So you want me to fade away?
I rather die in a good manner!!!

You can't tell me what to do, neither can you direct me any longer

I want to fly my own way even if it means I fall and hit into trees or mountains
I need to learn to experience the pain
What is life, if it is well planned?

"I told you so!!"
"See, should have listen to me!"

Hehe...I am glad I didn't, because if I did, I would not be the person I am today and I am proud of it!!

Signing off'
Teng will always be Teng

Penang Part 2

2007-06-21T18:30:00.000+08:00

1. On da way up to Penang!
2. From the plant
3. This is the top view from the plant!

Penang

2007-06-17T08:27:00.000+08:00

Penang...
A very distant place where I am at now.
I have got no friends but I think I could actually manage for 5 weeks as long as a saint named "Thiru" who left his Wifi open for anyone near my apartment.

At least I could actually go online and maybe check on things rather than stay in my room where I do not have the liberty of sleeping well due to unfamiliar grounds.

I will post up some pictures as day goes so I can keep you guys update what is happening. Just for your information, I am here in Penang for training.

You guys can actually contact me through my handphone 0124016882 or my personal number.

So see you guys. I have got to sleep.

Signing off
Teng

2007-06-10T16:47:00.000+08:00

"I rather die, than to slowly fade away..."

...because I wanna leave an impact and an impression in this world, not just someone who actually grows old and then die.

I wanna do something crazy, something out of the world that people would actually take time to remember me.

How many of you guys remember your grade two maths teacher? See what I mean? I don't remember a lot of things because these people chose to fade away rather than dying for a cause.

Look at Jesus, he did not just wait for time and fade away in this world. He needed to die and then raised again from death for people to know that He is our Saviour. He did not just step down from heaven and lived as normal humans till 80 and tries to preach to everyone He see. He just needed to actually make a statement, a statement of his reason for being down here- that is to die for our sins!

I rather die, than to fade away only applies for those who wants to be acknowledged and wanting to be accepted in our society. Waiting for our death is just like any non inspirational human in our society.

It is not easy but take time to ponder about it. I never ask you people to die ok? This is my point of view. Life's too complicated and nah...I wouldn't want to go through life once more from the start even if given the chance!!

Signing off'
Teng

Hey, life still goes on...

2007-06-02T17:09:00.000+08:00

I have embarked on a new journey in my life. A new phase you might say. So how has it been? My new job? Pretty good I would say. Thanks to those who kept me constantly in their prayers.

Sorry I can't update as often anymore so I will just make do whenever I am free to actually update this blog. Hope everyone is fine yah!!

Have you people ever felt you don't seem to be fit in your church anymore? Going to church is just a formality? Can't see eye to eye with your church's objectives and motives? Don't find that their purpose fits for you. Have you?

I did. I felt I was the main reason why I can't fit in. Is it time to move on? Maybe so but of course before I do that I need to find out what is the problem. Definitely not my church but me of course!

Not going to blame anyone as I myself do not have the same spirit I had for the pass 4 years. Maybe I have grown lukewarm? Well that is really bad ya? Because I guess it is either cold or hot for God but now I am lukewarm!!

But hey!Life still goes on no matter what!

Regards'
Teng

Bocor here, Bocor there...

2007-05-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

Bocor here, Bocor there...pecah here, pecah there...

So we spent millions of ringgits to build a very nice court but too bad it is always Bocor here, Bocor there...pecah here, pecah there...

Samy said "This is the most complicated and nicest ever design ever build and can last for 100 years!!!"

But sad to say Bocor here, Bocor there...pecah here, pecah there...

Maybe it is time Samy to go home and take a rest, same goes for all the ministers, MPs, Politician. Maybe it is time for some democracy. It has been 50 years ever since we have been living in an communist ideology in Malaysia, time to move on. The ideology of communism is "Everyone is equal, only the government gets more~"

So I am not againts NEP because it helps the bumiputera to grow out from their laziness and incompetency. I hope it goes on for another 100 years!! The only problem I see is that the only people who are getting this privilege are those in higher ups! What happened to those petani, nelayan and penoreh getah? Do they get 30% of equity in a company or maybe some Tan Sris, Dato's and Yang amat berhormat needs the financial help more?

We fought for our independence together, we lived harmoniously for the past 50 years. When I say together, it was the Chinese, Indian and Malay. So why non-Bumiputera company cannot sell their products to government departments? Even if they are allowed to, maybe they can sell not more than RM10,000 of goods yearly. Does the government only serves the bumiputeras? So maybe the non should pay 50 perent less tax anyway and see where can the country go without us!!

Anyway, the morale of the story would be, MPs please grow up, don't crack stupid jokes who hurt people. Think before you say anything and please respect women. I believe not only women "Bocor" every month, when you are OLD and you can't control your "...." properly, they start to "Bocor" and drips everyday...so don't make fun of God's creation!

I rest my case: Bocor here, Bocor there...pecah here, pecah there...

Signing off'
Teng

My K800i Pics!

2007-05-24T13:31:00.000+08:00

The Curve(Sony Ericsson K800i)

My house(Sony Ericsson K800i)

I think camera phones are convenient but not good enough if you really want to have some nice shot!

2007-05-21T08:17:00.000+08:00

People,

This could be on of my last post for this week as some of you people know that I will be moving into a new job that requires me to move around daily so I will not have the time to blog so often in office.

But of course I will be getting my notebook really soon and at the same I will be applying for a streamyx line very soon. So till then I hope I will still be in your reading list throughout the week. You can use the chatter box because I believe I would somehow find ways to blog, by hook or by crook.

I was feeling really happy and sad at the same time as I will be leaving my friends. This is my first ever corporate job that I had and I feel burdened by the thoughts of leaving the bank. To even notice some of my coworkers who I do not know by name, saying goodbye and good luck to me was aspring for me to be a better coworker in my new company.

Nevertheless, I would say this is a good move for me as this will be a new start that I was searching all along and was hoping for. I guess wanna thank some of you guys who pulled me through this period of my life where my life was going bonkers.

This sounds like an award winning speech but who cares, remember my Tagline? This is my blog, and if you don't like it, go start your OWN...hahaz...

Till then, my faithful friends and readers, may God bless you people abundantly(for those who visits me once in a while is also in this list)<---(see I so good right?hmm?), fruitfully and may all your desires be fulfilled. May those studying be good in their studies and for those whom are working, my you gain valuable life experiences and of course promotions and salary raise as soon as possible!!

Signing off'
Teng

Counting my days...

2007-05-20T08:23:00.000+08:00

Hey ever tried counting your days? How slow can it go? Or rather, how fast can it go?
Friends come and go by, how many times do we actually thanked them for being there when you are down?

Many times we are taken for granted yet many times too when we take others for granted. So I do feel that, my friends, though I might not say it outloud(I am not so open and straightforward); I do love you people, thanks for being there for me for all the happy and sad times.

Thanks people, no matter what people say, you people still my friends till the very end. I learnt many things from you people about life, love and everything under the sun.

Eva my mentor in realtionship, taught me how to love and be loved and not forgetting that I am suppose to be more decisive. Taught me about forgiveness as I learnt from her experiences in life. Had many great laughs with her. She is generous when she have the money lah, if not "Aiyah I no money la!!!" Ahahaha...

John, my mentor in lepaking. We spent many hours together doing funny stuffs and taught me what is the real meaning of enjoying my life! He always say "Eat slower lah, enjoy, enjoy" How to not enjoy when you see this big guy who eats and sweats at the same time. Really look like he is enjoying the food and the company!!

Clayton, thanks for being patience friend. Thanks for teaching me about computers when I do not know about them that much. Hehe...like a walking "Computer for Dummies"! Taught me about on how to be humble and lower down our pride for our own good(does not mean he is not prideful, but he is meek!) Been a great friend when I need to talk to somebody, always ready to be my listening ears.

There is also Randy, who never fails to rant about my "kehilangan diri secara tiba-tiba" Reminds me the importance of friends, he is a generous guy with a big heart. Of course you can't be calculative with him because he is not!! Great guy with lotsa technical knowledge on computers and networking. If you need a drinking friend--->Taaaddaaa~~~I present to you, R-A-N-D-Y always!! Long Island Rules!!!

Then there is of course Pamela Michelle Knaggs, don't be fooled by her name thinking she is one big pale ang moh girl. She is not, nama saja glamour, tapi muka Cina also. Always emo but she is full of nonsense. So basically she is my nonsense friend. We do crazy stuffs together, she laugh really loud when she needs/wants to. Have been my close friend for a long long time eventhough initially we don't like each other. Hahaz...Have not been hanging together that much but hey, you always be my nonsense friend lah-..

Sue Ling, well somebody who also never fails to rant about my "kehilangan diri secara tiba-tiba" Taught me how to treasure friendship. Friendship means alot to her and well, sorry if I did hilang for a moment in your life. Well got to have time to sort things out yah? And yah, not forgetting she is one hell of a generous girl. Always never fail to belanja me when I need someone to pay for me. But well guys, she is taken and so stay away from her ok??

Oh yah...KC the bangee(orang yang kena bang) Thanks for being in my life. Though I may go over board at times in banging(verbally guys...think straight k?) you(this guy always do things that allows people to find fault with him) But well without him, there will be no laughters yah? Starbucks is not the best anyway, eventhough I would not reckon that they have great juices!!!

My long lost brother Adrian, sorry for not spending time with you. A guy with great humor and well great appetite too. We learnt many things together, will never forget about the times we had when we were in college yah?Those late nights mamaking together till the wee hours!! Thanks for the advices you gave to me and Bro, you need to start thinking where you wanna head to in life!!! Banana leaf rice for life!!!

Pheobe, the talented writer, passionate, fun, musically inclined(does this sound correct?), W-A-C-K-Y and loving person. Not known her for a very long time, but she is a true friend. Lets lepak when you come to KL yah girl!! Need I say more?

Many friends that I did not mention does not mean you have not touch my life before but well, you know...I am LAZY!!! Haha...so maybe will save the appreciation in my next postings if I ever feel indebted to my friends again...hahaz

Well signing off'
Teng

NOtebook

2007-05-17T06:08:00.000+08:00

Processor
AMD Turion™ 64 X2 Dual-Core Mobile technology TL-50 (1.6GHz/512KB L2 Cache)
Operating system
Genuine Windows XP™
Memory
1GB (2x512MB) 533MHz dual-channel DDR2 SDRAM
Monitor
15.4" Wide Screen XGA TFT Display (1280x800 res.)
Harddrive
80GB 5400RPM SATA Hard Drive
Optical Drive
8X DVD+/-RW Combo Drive Optical Drive
Graphic Card
ATI Radeon® Xpress 1150 HyperMemory™ (integrated)
Network Card
Integrated 10/100 Fast Ethernet
Service
1-Year Complete Cover Support With Asia Pacific Regional Coverage (includes 1 Year Next Business Day On-Site Service) Service

I bought this notebook this morning without me knowing!!!haiyah!!!

Try it...pretty lame

2007-05-17T05:35:00.000+08:00

You know the Bible 80%!

Wow! You are truly a student of the Bible! Some of the questions were difficult, but they didn't slow you down! You know the books, the characters, the events . . . Very impressive!

Ultimate Bible Quiz
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Gosh

2007-05-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

Gosh this is me???

Emo

2007-05-16T07:20:00.000+08:00

I am feeling emo now...
I do not know why...
Emo has no definition to itself...
It comes and goes as it likes...
I am wondering what my life would be if not for my bunch of CF friends and God...
Would I be happier or would I be not?

Maybe things would be different...
Definitely...
But would it be better?
That would be the question...
Emo...

What would I be without you?

I am poor~~~

2007-05-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

I am officially poor
so to those who wants to donate to me can trf to Maybank A/c No:162478118634
I am in dire needs...
Aussie dollars are welcome as well(grins...)

Lee Yan

2007-05-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

I once had a good friend. But she was killed right in front of me. Run down by a school bus. Not that I can remember clearly.

Today I tried to remember her face because I chose to forget and leave the memory behind. It was hard, her face is no longer clear to me. It seems to be blurred for some reason.

Maybe, I blurred it on purpose as I was traumatized by the whole incident. I remember her cries clearly. It was a sharp painful cry yet, I was not able to do anything...it happened too fast. I took the blame, to make myself feel better but in return I had many nights of terrible nightmares.

If only I had agreed to follow her, to be with her, to hold her, the ending would have been different..

Her face, her laughters, her smile, her grins, her hands and everything, I can't remember them. Please let me remember, she is my friend whom I shared many things with. How could I be so cruel? Blocking her away from my thoughts. I do not want her to be in my life anymore? What am I?

I never wanted to recognise her existence...

What happened actually? Did I push her? Or did she walked on her own into the hands of fate?

It couldn't be me...I am no murderer...

Guilt has caught up after many years...Finally...

Did I or did I NOT?

To my friend, Lee Yan. I remember you now...

Rest in peace, May God be with you and thank you for all the things we shared...

From my darkest memories'
Teng

Tagged @#$#&

2007-05-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

The rules are: Once you've been tagged, you write a blog with 10 weird random things, facts, or habits about yourself.

At the end you choose 5 people to be tagged, and list their names.
Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'you are tagged', and tell them to read your latest blog.

1. I grind my teeth when I sleep.(apparently very very irritating

2. I don't like being tagged at all. Nope

3. I had five previous realtionship and was dumped by all of them(ooopss)

4. I always feel ashamed of how I look no matter how it seems that I am proud of myself

5. I can't and refuses to eat lady's finger until I met Eva

6. I sleepwalk alot, even took a knife and pointed at my landlady(I guess I was stressed)

7. I love driving my car real fast(Yeah!!)

8. I cursed alot when I am driving(Hey you!!@$#%&)

9. I am a man with alot of patience in everything except DRIVING(You good for nothing!! Look where you are going!!*toot*)

10. I was high on drugs, and now I am high on the Holy Spirit!

Run...

2007-05-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

"Run! Don't look back!!"

"I can't make it. I am too tired"

"No Tamy, don't give up, please I beg you"

"It's catching up, I'm going to give up, my dear friend"

Tamy drops down in a typical movie look alike slow motion fall, crashing into the torns and bushes as she reaches the ground in exhaustion and pain, shaking her head continuosly to signal that she had enough.

She knew what's coming up next. But she refused to open up her eyes in fear that she will see "him". For the very first time in 5 years, she clasps her hands together praying out loud to all the God she knew in her lifetime. Calling out desperately to whichever "God" that would eventually answer her cries.

"Call unto me and I will answer you!" A loud voice broke the silence of the night.

"Who are you? Please help me"

"I am the truth, the way, and the life"

"I pray to you, save me!"

"I can't if you don't allow me my child"

"YOU ARE ALL THE SAME!YOU ARE JUST A MYTH, A STORY, A CREATED BEING!!"

"I AM the great I AM"

"I love you my child"

"Then save me, my Father, save me from this fire"

"You still don't get it my child"

"Don't get WHAT??If you are so great, then save me. I command you whoever you are!!!"

There is a dead silence. Tamy realises that she is all alone. The enemies are gone. They have stopped the pursuit, she still couldn't move her arm, as though they were broken.

"God...my Father. Is this true? All these times I have doubted you, hated you and yet..."

John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

Help needed!!!

2007-05-13T18:48:00.001+08:00

People pls help do the survey!!!I need 50 people ok?I know you guys can do it!
Many thanks

My sale post!!

2007-05-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

http://www.zerotohundred.com/newforums/ice-in-car-entertainment/156663-dls-quality-tweeters-for-sale-2.html

You are my super hero!!!

2007-05-13T14:53:00.000+08:00

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman		100%
Spider-Man		100%
Supergirl		100%
Wonder Woman		100%
Hulk		100%
The Flash		100%
Green Lantern		100%
Catwoman		100%
Iron Man		100%
Batman		80%
Robin		80%

You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...

To: Eva my beloved Sister and Close Friend(whether you like it or not)

2007-05-09T11:55:00.000+08:00

Well i guess you need to look at things wider, don't be narrowed minded.

If you think people have offended maybe you should be like God, forgive them. It is not easy but hey, who are we to say no?

If we want God to forgive us, we need to forgive others as well. Not that I am perfect, but in Him I can be perfect because i was created in His image.

You are the one who asked me to look at things in a positive way-well...I am now. I am not close to church nor I am far, I am not strong yet I am not weak...

I believe if you are willing to look at things differently for awhile-maybe God will help, and if He does not,you need to move on too no matter what.

Stop sulking Eva, the world don't owe you or me anything, but we have our responsibility on our own in His kingdom. Whether or not we fulfill his desires for us-let God decide in the end.

I might not be right, but I want you to know that we are all humans created by God-equality is what I pursue.

We are not perfect on our own-we make alot alot of mistakes in life, but again, in Him we are whole and perfect.

May God bless you and hopefully we can be friends to you not only to your liking but also to our liking as well. It is not easy to like or love each others ways for it is different.

Who's hurting who, we won't know, wait till the day comes all will be revealed. Why worry and take to heart when there is more things to ponder and do?

Why care about others as we ourselves cannot finish our work and chores. Let those who can think;let them think themselves-for those who can worry; let them worry themselves.

I am sorry if my ways or anyone ways hurt you or made you uncomfortable. Whatever choices we make, we need to bear the consequences on our own in the end because in the end it is just God and I;face to face.

Go on with life Eva-you got lots and lots of wonderful things waiting for you. Don't let these affect you, don't let me or John Gan stumbles you, because it is not worth it.

Spread your wings and fly!!!Forget about humans and move on with God for He is plentiful and He has plans to prosper you and not hurt you.

People have highs and lows. Maybe you are on the mountain now...I am in the valley-it is my battle to move on. Not anyone else. I got to move on even if I am sliding back.

God is beckoning me...to move on. I see you on your mountain trying to cheer me on. God says to us-"Move on my child, each of you have different destiny, do not be bogged down by others!" We are all racing with different speed and pace. So move on girl!!

The ultimate goal is to heaven.

Eva, I hope this is an encouragement to you, not some comments that will hurt you.

I am just trying to make things right...Trying to run my own race...

Signing off

Teng

It is Manipulative ok!!!

2007-05-09T10:16:00.000+08:00

DISCLAIMER: This post is in no mean in belittling or insult any race or sex here. This is pure personal views and I am not forcing, repeat not FORCING anyone or anything to take the same stand. Thank you

Becks said :

"women craeted to be manipulative beings?i think the term here should NOT be manipluative but INFLUENTIAL!!when guys are in a mess and a mental block (which is quite frequent), you people tend to turn to US WOMEN for help and solution. so, we give you solution and you take blindly. would that be considered manipulative?hahaha!why must you ask such unanswerable questions again?you said dont want to ask again wan..."

Eric says :

Well it all started when God felt that Adam needs a companion, so He created Eve and placed her together with Adam. As usual, Adam aka The Man, is always understanding, kind, patience, joyful, romantic, smart and has an unusually high level of self control in shopping(everything in the likeness of GOD) allowed Eve to stay with him.

So imagine all these while you were staying alone and out of all sudden an "intruder"(don't get me wrong it is not negative ok?) comes into your life, your crib and your everything. So now, man who is kind, understanding(repeats the whole long list) allows Eve to take control over certain things(it is called DELEGATION now!) in the garden. Oh yah, don't forget they were naked!(takde kaitan langsung)

So one fine day, the woman was lepaking in the garden, suddenly the snake aka the Devil came and tempt her. So Devil asked her whether she wants to have the wisdom of God? The reason why God did not allow them to have the forbidden fruit is because God do not want them to be God themselves.

So, as woman she is a result oriented being, she wants to be like God! So instead of taking the fruit alone, she decided to manipulate Adam into eating the fruit together. So Adam also one kind lar...kena "manipulated"...so in the end he ate the fruit.

So the story goes on...

What I want to say is that, women would not be a manipulative being if WE man stands strong and not be manipulated by them then they won't be a manipulative being. Get it? So its the mens fault altogether. If only Adam would take the lead and responsibilty to take control(he also wanna be God lar...haih) and not delegate the job like my Boss-so we all will still be in EDEN lepaking with God happily ever after!!!

So conclusion-why wanna ask such questions when there is no correct answer to the questions just like why sausages is 12 in a pack while buns are 8 in a pack.

Bodoh...

Signing off'
Teng

Inquisitive?

2007-05-05T18:40:00.000+08:00

I realized I loved asking questions when I was younger(maybe now as well). I loved questioning things that are unexplainable. Such as why do we die? Why does the earth rotates around the sun but not vice versa? These are some of the things that I used to ask when I was much younger.

Yesterday, we were having our TT(teh tarik) in Centrepoint MacD. I was asking John, KC and Eric Lim some questions; some unexplainable questions about life. Well what John said made me think twice in the future if I am going to ask such questions again.

He said, "Somethings just cannot be explained, such as why sausages comes in the pack of 12 while the bun comes in the pack of 8???"

Well, I guess I truly understood at that very moment some things just cannot be explain!! and I have decided not to bother you guys with unanswerable questions any more in the future.

Oh yah, one questions, do you people agree that women are created to be a manipulative being?(I am not trying to start a war here, but hey! good discussions leads to...ehem -----> Instant DEATH)

Signing off'
Teng

What would you do?

2007-05-03T20:34:00.000+08:00

I NEED HELP~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CAN"T THINK STRAIGHT!!!

WHAT WOULD YOU DO???!!!!!???!!

SLEEP??

EAT???

SWEAR??

SCREAM??

RUN???

haiz...

DO NOTHING!!

aduhai...

Signing off'
Teng

Best quote!!

2007-05-01T09:42:00.000+08:00

"Voicing my discontentment does not make me a BLACK SHEEP and GOD loves BLACK SHEEP because they are never loved by selfish, mean,moronic and incompetent HUMAN RACE."

I guess to some of my older readers, you came across this maybe in my March postings. I find it really funny when I read back and found some truth behind it eventhough I wrote it when I was not in the right frame of mind.

I guess just wanna immortalised this quote. Haha-Cheers!

Signing off'
Teng

Goodbye...

2007-04-29T17:47:00.000+08:00

Goodbye my friends,
Goodbye my loved ones,
Goodbye my shoes,
Goodbye my beloved condominium,
Goodbye my not so powerful car,
Goodbye my favorite guitar,
Goodbye my job,
Goodbye my TV,
Goodbye Prison break,
Goodbye beautiful people,
Goodbye my new BUM jacket,
Goodbye my crushes,
Goodbye my PS2,
Goodbye my dreams,
Goodbye my Seiko watch,
Goodbye my world,
Goodbye all...

Hi God...We meet again...

Not that hard afterall

Signing off'
Unknown

Tumor

2007-04-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

Brain Stem Tumors (Midbrain, Pons, Medulla Oblongata)

Tumors of the brain stem can produce a variety of symptoms. The most common symptoms are vomiting, usually just after awakening, and a clumsy, uncoordinated walk (ataxic gait). Muscle weakness on one side of the face causes a one-sided smile or drooping eyelid. Difficulty in swallowing (dysphagia) and difficulty with speech (dysarthria) are also common symptoms. In addition, abnormalities in the functioning of the eye nerves produce "crossed eyes" or decreased vision. Headache, usually just after awakening, may also occur. Head tilt, drowsiness, hearing loss, one-sided muscle weakness (hemiparesis), and personality changes may be present. Symptoms may develop gradually.

Adopted "http://neurosurgery.mgh.harvard.edu/abta/primer.htm"

Existence?

2007-04-26T16:49:00.000+08:00

What am I made off?
Why am I so fragile?
Why do I feel pain?
What is the reason behind this suffering?
Why do I have to go through all these, again?
Whom should help me?
What are my plans?
Why so many questions?

Then, tell me, why do I exist?

For existence?

Existence...

The existence of this blog is in doubts...maybe it is time to stop the pain...

Maybe...

Signing off'
The blog

Kereta potong???

2007-04-23T23:48:00.000+08:00

MAA joins call for scrapping of old vehicles

KUALA LUMPUR: The Malaysian government should consider cash incentives for car owners to voluntarily scrap old vehicles as part of efforts to revive the slumping auto market, an industry group said Monday.
Sales of new vehicles in Malaysia, Southeast Asia's largest passenger car market, fell for a 14th straight month in March to 38,619 units, down by nearly 17 percent from a year earlier.

Last year, new auto sales in the country dropped 11 percent to 490,768 units largely because of tougher loan conditions, weak resale value and higher interest rates.

That trend is accelerating as vehicle sales in the first quarter sank 15 percent to 104,950 units.
Aishah Ahmad, president of the Malaysian Automotive Association, said the government should consider giving cash incentives to encourage owners to voluntarily scrap old cars and ensure less stringent financing terms to boost sales.

New vehicle sales in Malaysia are spurred largely by owners upgrading their cars, but the weak resale value of used cars has hurt demand for new ones, she said.

"If there is cash incentive, owners have an option to scrap their car and get a better used car,'' Aishah told The Associated Press.
''If sales of used cars improve, then new car sales will also be better.'' - AP

Quoted from thestar.com.my

I read this ridiculous news from star online. Come on man, you wanna scrap the cars? go ahead la..the only people you are killing is your own people. A normal Wira will caused like Rm50,000 and if lets say they set the lifespan at 5 years-I can safely say almost 60% of the Wira owners have not finished paying or just about to enjoy the happiness of owning a car without the installments.

So still wanna scrap? We cannot scrap cars like Japan unless the price of the cars are those like in Japan-cheap but not lousy cars. Anyway why wanna scrap a car that is already a crap?(Proton and Perodua=milo tin)

Don't get me wrong, I myself is also driving a Wira and I find it pretty useless and over priced!!! So I say if you don't solve the over pricing issue don't ever dream of implementing the scrapping car policy if you still want to win the election Pak Lah!

Stop protecting Proton, they have hands and legs, let them protect themselves-20 years of shame is way too much to bear!!!

Signing off'

Unhappy Citizen-Teng

Flying skirt

2007-04-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

This happened on Friday evening. I was at my condo's lobby waiting for the lift. Normally, I do not use the lift because I am staying on level 2-so there is no need of using the lift but well, was lazy.

While I was waiting, I heard *clog* clog* The sound of women's heels. So was expecting maybe my neighbour right? Who knows? I turned back and I saw a lady (was so-so lar, not so pretty also) dressed in casual attire. I look at her and tried to initiate a friendly smile. All I got was a cold look and she was like controlling "Macho" the whole time. She stood beside me and I was thinking "Amboi, action-nya. Takpe, Takpe"

Then out of all sudden, there was a strong gust of wind which lifted up her skirt. I was like "Huh?"
She was like so so so so so embarrased by it and she turn red. Hmm...okay guys i know what you guys were thinking and No, I did not see anything. It was way...to fast.

Anyway, the lift came, I went in, waited for her and she just stood there still trying to control cantik.

"Miss, you wanna come into the lift?"

"Em...no...em...ah...waiting for someone"

"Ok"

So the moral of the story is, go figure la...always I tell the moral of story, you guys need to do some thinking too...

Signing off'
Terrified Teng

Letting go

2007-04-23T00:46:00.000+08:00

Well I think in everything in this world, the most difficult thing to do is letting go. Imagine you had something you like and wanted but have to let it go because of circumstances and situation. Imagine all you wanted in your life was a lovely Nissan Skyline R32-you bought it, then came the part where it was stolen. How do you feel when people comes telling, "Let it go"

So there are many things such as friends who don't like you anymore maybe because the way you talk, act or even how you look(shallow people). But deep in your heart you know you treasured him/her but just that,well, that is it. No reason, people just leave you for their own reason. Maybe it was fear? Fearing that they have been leading you on, but all they wanted was a friendship not courtship. Not able to have the courage to tell you "I think I just wanna be friends"

We would have understood that don't we? Rather than leaving without a word, sms without a reply, no longer appeared online in msn and better still no answer when contacted over the phone. Why can't human be simple? Why must we be a complex being when being simple is the key to happiness? I don't know why. Please reply my message. Please... Don't just leave me hanging(many of us feels like that right?) <---don't get me wrong no reply means no reply for like 2 weeks not like 1 or 2 hours ok?

So when such things happen, can you say "Just let it go" without any resentment and hate? Can you?

Things like "Where are you?" "What happened to you?" "You ok?" "Why no calls from you anymore?" "Why no more late night calls from you anymore?"

So it goes on and on, and after few months you finally got hold of him/her;

"Hey..."(deep low sad voice)

"You finally picked up, what happened?"(trying to act everything is fine when it is not)

"Oh nothing, just BUSY" (cheerful voice as though nothing happened)

"I see. Wanna meet up?" (hoping that this could resolve the issue)

"No I don't think so, I am meeting up my boy friend*giggles*, Sorry ya?(not sincere)

"Ok" (dejected)

"Bye"

Can you say "Let it go" now?

I can't.

I won't.

Signing off
Teng who looks up to heaven and pray "Please protect her and keep her safe where ever and whoever she is with"

Looking back

2007-04-22T03:48:00.000+08:00

Well, how do I start this. Hmm...looking back? I can't really believe that I have reached maybe 1/3 of my life(assuming that i can live up to 75 yrs old). I have not achieve anything, and yet i have lost so many things.

I have regrets, I had my glory, I had everything that I could ask for, what is it that i am not satisfied? Of course, my regrets. Things that had changed my life the way it is not supposed to be; wrong decisions, childish sentiment and, well a little bit of out of luck in my life I would say.

I wish my life could be 'different' but of course people will take the opportunity to jump at me saying "BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE!!" once they read this statement that come out from my mouth,erm..hands.

If I could turn back time, I would no, not buy 4D lotteries or shares so I can earn money, and no, not to change my exam results but to rectify(fuu yoh rectify wei!) certain decisions that has caused sufferings to others with or without me knowing(wahahaha*evil grin)

I wanna say sorry to those, who cried because of me, who was hurt by my actions, suffered due to my decisions and of course to those whom I made their life, MISERABLE. (sue ling, eva, ju an, pam,john, KC, clayton and his missus, my brother, parents and of course, my BOSS;oh yah not forgetting those aunties, ah beng, ah lian who was honked by me all the time on the road for driving recklessly, too slowly, dangerously and blurry and, forcing them to read between the lines when needed)

Just wanna say sorry people, I paid my dues-

This is an emotional entry -_-

Never before in my life I had the urge to look behind

But...but...something is holding me back

"Jangan pandang belakang" ,"Jangan pandang belakang"

Creeping off'
Teng who looked behind and found nothing but *****(sensored due to feedback from my ex readers, most probably this is the last time they are going to read my entry ever again!!! sorry!!many apologies)

I got the job~~~

2007-04-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

Dear all,

This letter to inform you guys that I have already got the job..hehe..was good because we sorted things out like my pay and the transportation they are going to provide for me to service my customers and No! this is not a sales job but I think it should be something like a Accounts Executive whereby we are the PR people.

I will be getting my appointment letter on this Monday and hopefully I will be able to agree on the terms and agreement set up by them and hopefully it is a permanent job. I guess I can see prospect within the company but of course we won't know untill we are in it, right? Anyway, thanks for the concern and time to pray for me. many thanks ya...

Oh ya, I don't really know how to write a resignation letter, any suggestions? Can just post in my comment so I can cut and paste. Wahahhahaa...

But I am not pushing my luck la..still have to work until the day I get my appointment letter then, I AM FREE!!!!

Things just got better. It will be better tomorrow. I believe. See you guys in church. Me going church. It is a commitment I made to myself. Sundays are compulsory if I can make it.

Signing off
Teng

Tomorrow!!!20th April 2007

2007-04-19T18:01:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is going to be a big big day for me. I will be on my off day and I have a appointment with Seberang Flour manager. According to Unc. Michael she wants to meet me in person before deciding whether I am up for the job. If you ask me, I would say I do not have any confidence because the fact that this is going to be my first sales position job.

What do I sell? Basically I will be seling flour. It is not easy as the customer base is very tight due to the fact that it has many competitors in the market(based on my market research-fuuyoh!!!) I guess wanna thank God for the opportunity. Of course I have to thank Uncle Michael for helping and pulling strings for me. I hope I won't disappoint him with my performance tomorrow.

I read through the company profile, and I find that it is actually part of Soon Soon group which is pretty big I guess. I will be doing lots of selling of different kind of flours to different factory. I guess i will do fine since I am always good in impressing people the first time. Haha some may beg to differ but however, no pain no gain. Anyway its good if it is a 5 day a week job so I can return back in serving in church more regularly which i have not been doing now.

I pray for favour from everyone tomorrow and most importantly to be able to wake up on time for my long journey. i guess if I do not get the job it will at least provide me with an insight of what a sales/marketing executive will have to go through in daily chores. Will I like the flexibility after working for so long in shift work? Will I be able to handle the stress and expectation level? Will I be able to cope with the need to be brave and step out from my comfort zones in order to do sales? It takes lots of courage I believe, but I know I can count on God and my friends(right guys?right?)

Well, we can always plan all we want but God is the one putting it all together for my own good. Currently my morale is low in terms of job motivation with my current work place going back on their own words in regards to promotions, I mean I always think that working for a big company will not have such issue, but Oh NO!! How wrong am I in this.

No point crying over spilt milk. Sob~~Sob~~ Got to move on guys, got to move on.

Things will get better. It will. I believe...He will make a way.

Signing off'
Teng

Calm

2007-04-17T16:07:00.000+08:00

Morning 9:15am

I need a new job!!!I am sick of my current job because we are not appreciated. SO what is the point of staying put. Loyalty is no longer the key to success in a particular organization, its "kulitfication". Sorry about the racist remarks(not a general remark to bring our dear friends down, only certain people), but if you are working for one big whole company filled with them, you would understand the frustration and pain I went through.

The time, effort, hopes are all dashed. Well, I don't care anymore. I am suppose to work now, but who cares anymore. No one...It is a big company and it has no place for people like me. Who cares about work ethics? It is all about themselves. I guessed maybe thats why we have God as the final judge.
If not, everyone would want to be God, would want to control everything, would want to judge everything as well.

Afternoon 4:04pm

This includes MYSELF.I always tend to judge, maybe this what God has been trying to impress me thus far, yet I am blind and I am too in to climbing up the corporate ladder without knowing I have caused much pain in the process.

"So search me Oh Lord, may Your goodness fills my mind, body and soul. Please help me Lord, this is my plea. Help me see, help me feel them. Take away the hatred that I have for them, for if I hate them, You will surely hate me too. If I don't forgive them, neither will I be forgiven by You who are in heaven. Amen"

Not so Holy,
Teng (blueek~~~)-_-'''

Loneliness

2007-04-13T18:27:00.000+08:00

Ahem...

Anyone of you ever felt lonely? I mean for those who willingly admitted kudos to you but hey those who don't, why are you trying to lie to yourself? Lol.

I mean everyone will eventually feel lonely at some point of their life, hoping for someone to be there for them. It is not as simple as friends and family, you just want to have that special someone you care and would like him/her to love you back. Sounds easy? Well the hard part is to find somebody who is mutually in love with you. Darn...

It is always this scenario:

Amanda loves Brendan, but Brendan loves Christine, and eventually Christine is a lesbian who in returns loves Amanda but to find out Amanda is her long lost sister~~!!!!(thunder roar and lightning flashes!!!!)

???Familiar???No lar. It is not Hindi or Tamil movie script. Its happening in real life.

Get what I mean? So people, please do appreciate your love ones because if you miss him/her, there might not be another coming by.

Signing off
Teng

Sony Ericsson

2007-04-13T18:12:00.000+08:00

Was wondering whether this is just a concept phone or it will be in the market in the near future? I can't but to notice the similarity between this phone and LG Chocolate. Well this is obviously a class above LG(looks good)

I am back~~

2007-04-12T19:51:00.000+08:00

Howdie people,

Today we are going to talk about work ethics. Well, to generalised and to group them all up, Malaysians do not have proper work ethics. In a rude way to describe this eg: "Leave shit for other people to clean it up for you" or "Good things I own up, bad things-sorry la, go FLY kite"

Well sad to say this is what we are going through in the working world. Some even might say "Aiyah, working is like that one lar~~~" or some would say "Its a dog eat dog world out there" and the infamous "The fittest survive"- So judging from the last phrase, we are some animal whose instinct tells us to fight for survival? I am confused. ???

Well just a point to ponder-we human or no??

To buy or not to buy?

2007-04-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

I was wondering whether I should buy this steering to replace my old steering. Not that its old or spoilt, but just for the looks and fresh outlook on my car. What you guys think, the price is very affordable but just wondering whether it suits the interior of my car.

I really like it though...

Say no to REMPITS~~~

2007-03-31T05:19:00.000+08:00

No offense Khairy, but your Mat Cemerlang is not really that cemerlang lar...they are actually a nuisance to the society. Instead of spending time and resources on them, why not look at more important people such as youths that actually HAVE a future? Youths that love themselves and know the price of their life? I don't know. Build a circuit for them? They will still roam the streets, trust me. It is the adrenaline rush of racing on the streets that spurs them on rather than old safe and sound race circuit.

Why do I say that? Cause I love racing but I refrained from it because it is dangerous. These kids are too young and if they are not taught a lesson, they will be a menace in the future. No offense but 90% of the mat rempits we know are made out of one race. Not that I hate them, just that robbing, raping, breaking street rules and challenging the authority is not what we Malaysians can accept. I, personally is fine with the illegal racing part but crimes like that? I mean don't forget if at such tender age they can do all these, what will happen to them in future? More daring acts?

Imagine making a police report after being harresed by mat rempits at 2 am in the morning and the police says this to you "Lain kali jangan keluar malam, duduk kat rumah"

So since when did my freedom became dependent on when Mat rempits roam the streets? Instead of rectifying their acts, the innocents are told to stay away from the streets? WE PAY THE ROAD TAX, THEY DO NOT. Please stop finding excuses of stalling the fact that our country is facing an uphill task in curbing these scumbags.

And definitely NO! to prize giving for catching snatch thieves(a stupid idea thought out to turn mat rempits into positive crap) How do you expect them to catch themselves? Get what I mean?

Sorry if my posting is offensive. I am not a busybody and if they do not get on other people's nerves, they can do what they like. I always believe in freedom as long as we do not complicate others in the process of praticing our given freedom.

So sorry to say :

I rest my case...

Signing off'

Teng

Where are you?

2007-03-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

Be still? My heart refuses. Look to You? My eyes rejects it. Where are You? I don't know.

Is it me? I believe so. No one blames the big guy up there...People say "Must be you, you did not follow His will and have sinned greatly"

So be it? I don't think so. Can I move on? I doubt it. Have I lose my faith? I have not...

"You must have lost it", "Your faith is insufficient for Him to change your life"

Move mountains? "Hey move it!!"

Be still? I don't know...

Where are you? My tears is sufficient for You.

Enough for now. Take courage.

Forgive me.

Your child,
Ah Teng

Guidelines: How to be a good Customer Over the Phone

2007-03-23T15:35:00.000+08:00

1. Do not start a conversation with "My account number is..." This is VERY RUDE

2. Be certain what you want to ask. Don't "Ah...erm.. eh...arh..." This is irritating

3. Do not be demanding. Do not ever think if you are demanding and spoilt you can have your way. NO!!

4. Do nto scream over the phone. We have enough of calls per day. Some exceeding 100 calls.

5. Simple, be CONSIDERATE. Not that we do not want to assist you, We simply CANNOT.

6. You need to get your facts right. We are sitting there for a reason. We ARE trained, you are not.

7. Yes! You have lots of money, but well you can't bring it with you when you kick the bucket. Be humble

8. Do not threaten to lodge a complaint againts us. Believe me, we are bored of hearing that.

9. Customer is always right, theoritically but practically they are always WRONG.

10. Last but not least, shut up and listen. We can't explain when you are talking like a machine gun
shooting at everything we have got.

Cheers for those who worked in Frontline positions. We remember your sacrifices!!!

Signing off'
Teng

Ponder~~~

2007-03-22T11:27:00.000+08:00

I was having my tea break when one of my junior staffs came over and try to make small talk with me. I was surprised with her pickup line. "Hey Eric, you put on weight is it?" then she went on yapping away happily about her work and family. As I listened intently to her, never did she realise that I have not even spoken a word to her yet. Well I guess ignorant is a bliss. This is a point to ponder.

Another situation I encountered recently, I was having my lunch recently and suddenly I saw a long lost friend. As I was putting my spoon full of maggie goreng into my mouth, he asked loudly "Eating ah?"
I was like "Yah" This marks the start and the end of a "wonderful" conversation.

Last but not least the lift incident. Imagine you are in the lift going down to Lower ground for lunch, and it was lunch time as per normal. A staff from a different department comes in and smile at you "Lunch ar?"
You get the picture right?

Well it's the starting up a small talk skills that I am pondering. I mean isn't obvious that Malaysian do not have the adequate skills to communicate? I don't know, dont shoot me it is just my point of view.

Signing off
Teng

Secret Place

2007-03-18T11:57:00.000+08:00

I truly understand the baby's feeling because I feel the same too sometimes after I come back from work. Not from exhaustion but rather, the need for a secret place that provides serenity, peace and quiet. A place I can call my own. Nobody should laugh at the baby, because this is his "secret PLACE".(of course not taking into consideration of the smell though)

Well, sometimes we can go into our secret place and search our thoughts, our feelings and our future. There is where we find God. Yes...God.

Signing off'
Teng

Flying~~

2007-03-14T06:49:00.000+08:00

I was perspiring. My left hand firmly gripped on my car's gear knob, entering into my fifth gear. I looked at my RPM meter and it is screaming at 8000 RPM and as I shifted to the 6th gear I was welcomed by the sweetest sound on earth *bshhhh*

Looking at my speedo meter, it clearly stands at 240 mph. Everything seems to slow down even at such great speed. I looked around. There's...that is the corner that I crashed last week. I have no fear. I have to conquer this. As I dropped down my gears, I heard a loud screeching. I knew, my car is going sideways and I knew I can make it and...

All of sudden...I woke up. Darn...it is just a dream. Back to reality. Looking at my Proton Wira.

Well I remember ticking myself off "Don't drink and drive, Smoke and Fly" as I slowly crawls through the jam on LDP...

Signing off'
Teng

Will you

2007-03-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

Hey God, What am I to you?
Like the dew in the morning

Hey God, Will you love me still?
If I said I hate you

The pain is growing, it won't go away
Remember this feeling once again

What if I failed you?
what if I stumble on my feet?
Will you love me, will love me still

What if I failed to fly?
What if I stop trying?
Will you love me? Will you love me still

Me

2007-03-06T14:50:00.000+08:00

I am so bored la...haiyah..draw rubbish...Its titled "Me"

I name my painting~~MOODY

2007-03-06T11:15:00.000+08:00

Whom can I trust but YOU

2007-03-06T10:02:00.000+08:00

We are leaving in a world full of liars and backstabbers. i believe those who have already plunge(unwillingly) themselves into the working world will surely agree with me. One moment you have the greatest ever manager or line supervisors, the next moment they are your greatest enemy. Sad to say, I have been VICTIMISED!!!

What kind of manager would actually lie to your subordinates in order to get off the hook himself and in the process getting his line supervisors into trouble with the downline(ME)
So, I guess friendship in workplace is utter rubbish and should not even exist in the first place. We should no talk to anyone in the office regardsless of anything(verbally) but well, we can always use email. Don't waste time building up friendship as all these do not count when you are in trouble or if you are the black sheep of the family(basically being eager to voice out discontentment to the management).

The fact is that everyone is not happy with the management rules and policies yet no one, NO ONE actually dared to voice it out. All they do is backstabbing and gossiping behind people's back. What good is this?For mankind or whatsoever...Have never used profanities in my blog or my life indirectly or directly at any human race, well it's a =$%#OX)X!! world out there. Get off my back and I don't care about what you think about me.

This is my life, my Blog, my future, my success. All I know is that you will not be there to enjoy my success with me because most probably you will be stuck there forever with your stuck up attitude thinking your are really great in your work. Guess what? When the end time comes, well we will know when we look at the 325,000,000 Inch flat PLASMA LCD screen that GOD has to show and judge all your evil doings in this world. Then the world will know how noble you are(being sacarstic)

signing off'
"Voicing my discontentment does not make me a BLACK SHEEP and GOD loves BLACK SHEEP because they are never loved by selfish, mean,moronic and incompetent HUMAN RACE."

Only Loved by God
Teng

Lost

2007-03-03T15:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night I was suppose to meet up with my friend in Jalan Taman Bukit Desa? See the name of the street also got problem already lar...what lar...haiyah...anyway I am suppose to call him for direction but all he said was " where are you?" I said, " I am at your street". He said "My house is THERE lor..." -_-'''

What kind of direction is that? Anyway I have come out with a map that I think suits his housing area...enjoy

Tonight suppose to go again...dunno lar

Signing off

Teng

IQ Question

2007-03-02T17:34:00.001+08:00

This is a IQ question. The picture depicts a school bus. Do you know which way it is moving towards? Only answers :Left or Right

I am back at work!!

2007-02-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

Phew! I am back to work FINALLY...

I have dreaded this day for a long long time. Well I have not recovered yet from my viral fever for those who did not know about it, I had a 41 degrees fever on the 12th of February. Thought was going to die but however miraculously I survived the ordeal- repeat after me ORDEAL.

I still have a cracked up voice so taking up calls would be quite impossible. Now I am in office putting on a timeout and feeling giddy. So what did I learn from all these? Well on the night I was down with the fever, it came to me as though it was my last day. Called my dear friends, my dad to bid goodbye. For me it is kind of a practive I supposed. It was not a good experience but I prayed so hard for God's healing on that night.

Well, friends if you guys wanna know how does it feel to be on the brink of death, please do drop me a call, I will relate my experience in a more detailed manner(not that any of you are interested)

Signing off'
Teng

Skyline R32 Customed for me

2007-02-10T02:44:00.000+08:00

Courtesy of Canisloopus

This is a Nissan Skyline and it my dream car. Well do you know why I say dream car? First of all, this car is not in production any longer. Second, dreams vanishes after waking up. So "WAKE UP TENG!!!!"

Tak mahu...

Daddy's wish

2007-02-10T02:36:00.000+08:00

Got this from somewhere-cute huh?I wish my kid will look like that too...just like her DAD...ahahaha

First...

2007-02-10T00:50:00.000+08:00

God says put Me FIRST in everything you do, you plan, you execute. How many times have we read this in books, sermon notes and in the bible. But well how many times do we actually follow this? For me, lets see...none

Well this is depressing as I will "crawl" into my 3rd year as a Christian. What have I accomplished throughout all these years? Well you see, I won't say nothing but however it would be minimal, enough to get me into heaven. But that's not enough, what about the treasures and planets that others will be getting? I want my share.

See. Even the nature of this post has started to move along "WHAT I WANT, NOT WHAT HE WANTS"
I am in a deppressing and stressful period of my life. Should I move on from my job? What does God want of me? Well it is tough to decide just like that. I have been hearing audible voice(I reckon is God's voice) everytime I pray, He just says "Go North, Go east".

Go where Lord? Where? You have got to be specific. I have been praying for a new job as my current(though pays well) does not allow me to attend church regularly. I can't afford to lose the salary structures that I am having from Maybank.

Ok, here goes. I am going to share my spending budget breakdown with you guys:

My take home salary : RM2700

- Tithes 10% : Rm270
- Home Loan : Rm800
- Utilities : RM300
- Car : RM400
-Petrol : RM400
-Needs and Wants : RM400

Total :RM2570

So pratically I am left with RM130.00 that is if I do not need to service my car.

See, see. How do I survive in this kind of harsh environment??? HOW??? LORD~~LORD!!!!

*pengsan*

Awakened after two hours...just wanna be dramatic lar...well this is the course of life. No other way-just trust and obey.

Signing off"

Till then-Teng